Racist Elephant in the Room?

Well, here in the Bay Area there are signs, many, that racism is creeping back up, and NOT going away! It is despicable, disgusting and frightening. We finally have an African American President of our country, and yep, they all come crawling out of the shadows like the cockroaches they are. High school students in Morgan Hill wore American flags to protest Cinco de Mayo, while at another school further up the peninsula, students actually burnt Mexican flags and threw them in the trashcans. to protest Cinco de Mayo. An "innocent mistake" (the students said) was made when they wore BORDER PATROL SHIRTS to school to protest the Mexican Holiday at Pioneer School in San Jose! WTF is going on folks? Do you really think our teens are naturally racists all on their own. Youth have never been known to be that way. They are just the opposite. Kids are not naturally haters. The adults in their lives convince them they should be dividers, separatists, and racists. I believe we should call it what it is. This is not something that is going to blow away like a trend in shoes.
This all goes along with the tea party movement, in my opinion. Tea Partiers are fueled by fear, hate of "others", and they are teaching their children (youth) to believe in their unfounded racist ideas. That is apparent by the growing numbers of young people at the tea party 's.
I know they say they aren't racists. But tell me when have racists EVER admitted they were racist! When? They are liars, hiders, inciters, and haters. They have come out in great force. They hid in the shadows when we had older white men as leaders of our country. But, unfortunately, as soon as Obama was elected they started showing up. In the "Town Meetings" that our President hosted, people started popping up with ridiculous ugly remarks that had no substance, only mean-spiritness and hatefulness. But they needed someone else to represent them. Because racists in general are not very good public speakers. So naturally they went to the colleges, and high schools through parents and other means of coercion.
I am talking about this because, one-I am furious about what is happening here in the San Francisco Bay Area. And two-because if we don't talk about it in plain language openly, they will flourish. And we will end up back in the Civil War. Literally, we will have another Civil war in the 21st Century. What a damn shame.
What an embarrassment! We have finally regained respect from the rest of the world that Bush destroyed during his 8 years of reign. And we are sabotaging that respect from the roots of our country; the youth, and the lack of respect for ourselves. There is much, much more to say about this. I am just attempting to start the conversation about the elephant in the room.

I am a fifty six year old woman who is grappling with a dilemna. Depression, substance abuse, low self esteem, dysfunctional relationships, just to name a few, haveperplexed me my entire life. Now, at fifty six, I am scrambling for a way up, and out. I am intelligent, although don't have much in the work experience area due to the obvious, stated above. I've attempted college, university, and nearly pulled it off! Except for having to withdraw from all my classes, to care for my partner jimmy, while he battled bladder cancer with chemo, then chemo again with radiaation added-five days a week.. Well, the only positive thing I had in my life for nearly all my life--was quickly nipped in the bud. Now, there is a slim chance that I can finish my degree because I haave to have fin. aid. and withdrawing while on fin. aid, puts a huge crimp in mypossibility of getting the holds lifted!
So, here I am, what do I do? I feel like I can't take this life any more. Were it not for my son, and gransdon, I would have pulled the plug already. When one's life is disproportionaltly more depression and despair, overpowering any sense of hope or achievement, well, what's it worth?
I cry and cry, and feel like I am at the bottom of the barrel. Not a new concept or feeling for me. But, now, it's much worse, and more often.

Co-Evolution

Evolution in two-or more-species of organisms
such that
changes in one
affect
changes in the other(s).

I'm listening to a story about a woman who grew to be anorexic, and her memories growing up as a kid are "feeling uncomfortable in "her own skin, inadequate, less than, totally different than others-leading to her conclusion that if she were thin, and thiner and thiner, she would fit in and be a happy girl. She also mentions the media, the magazines models figures and airbrushed bodies. The story continues that asks was she born with this --dna? She was born with depression a doctor says. Yes. I see the correlation with drug and alcohol addiction. Any addiction, really. Eating disorders are being researched as genetic predisorders. It is in the early stages, but I can see where it is going, and I agree. The evidence is in regarding alcoholism being an inherited disorder,, via twin studies and more. It will be interesting to watch how these studies/research unravels regarding eating disorders. So common amongst females, and so devastating, a killer-literally.

Time to Get Busy!

Yes it is. I've decided to start posting "daily" or every other day. There is so much pounding around in my head these days that my brain is spilling over into my nervous system and those other parts of our be-ing. Yeeooww. My body is screaming, my thoughts are feuding with themselves; now that's really bad. So, tonight I say to myself and any body else that I commit to writing my blog. Believe me, there is alot of stuff I need/want to talk about. Tons, really.
So, off to my bed I go, to read something suspensful by James Patterson. I'll stay away from non-fiction tonight, I've got enough of my own to decipher in the hours and days to come.
PS: Good night my adored son and grandson. You keep my heart warm when nothing else can. I love you, and good night.

Report on Millions of Common birds from Audobon Society

http://www.nytimes.com/2007/06/19/opinion/19tue4.html?em&ex=1182398400&en=7d44618606a080ac&ei=5087%0A
Read this article

a Novice

I just wanted to say, in case anybody ever comes to read my blog, that I have never done one of these before. Yep, I'm just beginning. But, I love it. I love reading others' blogs and now, that's the way I research the "news, etc" . I need to know what's happening to us, and around us; mostly for the young ones, like my son and grandson. Knowledge is power, but using it is what its all about. So, I am very new at this, but have been learning to add items to oped news, among other sites I respect and read regularly. The writers at those places are my teachers. I love to learn new stuff.
Off to new territories....

Environmental Defense Action Fund

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Go to http://action.environmentaldefense.org/campaign/newpatriotism/83ue5g4p38t55x? to read about the New Declaration of New Patriotism, and to sign it!